Song lyrics for Evanescence are typically written by Amy Lee. She’s the lead singer and puts most of her own life experiences, personality, and trials into the songs that she writes. This is one things that makes Evanescence stand out from other groups.
One of my favorite music groups is Evanescence. They are not the only group in the list, but they hold a special place in my heart. Over the years I have listened, and memorized songs throughout all of their released CD’s. They are not my only favorite group, but one of them. Anyway…I have heard practically all of their songs throughout the course of the last 1 to 1/2 years. So I am familiar with most of them. Well yesterday I was playing an old CD of tracks and I ran into one that I had originally missed this entire time. The track was titled “The Last Song I’m Wasting On You”. So as usual, when I listen to music I try to put a big focus into what the music means, and what the hidden “symbolism” means throughout the songs I hear. So I listened to it several times and got the word down, did some digging online, and then listened to it again. I think I have a good handle on the overall meaning of the song
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Evanescence – Song lyrics and my opinions
The song is copied/pasted below for the lyrics, in plain text. My thoughts on meaning interpretation are added in as bold text. I could (and probably am) wrong in some respects but this is what I gather from the song, for now.
They’re my own veins.
Any more than a whisper,
Any sudden movement of my heart.
And I know, I know I’ll have to watch them pass away
To me, after reading online and listening to the song a few times, means suicide. Sparkling grey could be the flash of a razor blade (like you shave with). Also saying “They’re my own veins” she is able and wanting to kill herself at this point. Saying that it won’t take hardly anything to end her life right at that moment.
Just get through this day
Self-motivation to try to talk herself out of the suicide.
Give up your way, you could be anything,
Give up my way, and lose myself, not today
That’s too much guilt to pay
This I’m not entirely sure about. Maybe she’s talking to herself, again more self-motivation to try to prevent killing herself. Maybe this is her way of saying that she has too much guilt for the people she leaves behind upon her death (maybe).
Sickened in the sun
You dare tell me you love me
But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
Honey you know, you know I’d never hurt you that way
Again…this is (to me) reference to depression. She got extremely depressed and didn’t get out for a long time, and was stuck inside. Her “boyfriend” at some point held her down and screamed at her about wanting her to die. Perhaps he was drunk, and/or in some ways abusive.
You’re just so pretty in your pain
Not sure what she is referring to. Maybe she feels inside that she deserves the situation she is. Again if this is referring to an abusive/drunken relationship I know (from what I read) that emotionally they sometimes feel that it’s there fault (even though obviously it’s not).
Give up my way, and I could be anything
I’ll make my own way
Without your senseless hate… hate… hate… hate.
She is telling herself that if she does not give into suicide, and forces herself to make it through this, that the sky is the limit. She could have anything, or be anything that she wants to be…without him, and without him hating her all the time. Again, this would be accomplished by her moving on and leaving him, and starting a new life for herself.
So run, run, run
And hate me, if it feels good.
I can’t hear your screams anymore
So I’m a little confused on this part. It seems again she is talking to her lover at this point. Telling him that if he feels better to hate her, then go ahead. She is getting to a point where she can block out him screaming at her all the time.
You lied to me
But I’m older now
And I’m not buying baby
Again as in an abusive/hurtful/alcoholic relationship…perhaps he lied to her several times about “changing” and about “not meaning to do what he does” but now she’s not a child anymore. She has learned to see past his “lies” and knows not to trust his deceitful words anymore.
Demanding my response
Don’t bother breaking the door down
I found my way out
Again, either two things to me. She is probably in the bathroom here. With the razor blade, racing through thoughts of suicide. He is at the door screaming for her to respond, and trying to break the door down. She has either found a way out (by suicide) or by getting over/past him and leaving him.
And you’ll never hurt me again.